Random Banter and other top cas things

You can tell the level at which I am procrastinating by whether or not I go on my tumblr. I am literally never on here ever unless I have a fuckload of work to do that is literally making me want to vomit just thinking about doing. Woe is me

What makes this a billion times worse is that I am desperate for the end of my finals, but the end of my finals means the end of my time in studying in America and, frankly, I don’t know which one is stressing me out more. Finals and leaving is literally too much to deal with right now. I think I’ll sleep instead

Ok, so by reunited I mean for like an hour but still, seeing a friend from home was the best thing ever. I truly love that boy. But I now feel a little homesick. I love it here, I love my friends here, but sometimes I really can underestimate how much I miss people at home because I love ’em.

BUT this could be coming off the back of my first ever Christmas without my family which was weird. I had a great time, but it was weird.

Sorry, ranty and moany post and I do seem like I am forgetting the bigger picture which is of course me being in frickin’ America for a year which is an opportunity that most would kill for by still. I sometimes forget that I gave up a little bit of time with friends and family from home and that time is seeming more and more precious every moment I spend away from them. Again, bigger picture though, I am making friends I care just as much about here but there’s no place like home at the end of the day.

“You are very good at giving off the sense of being a really open person. It is interesting. It’s like seeing the beautiful mountains and lakes and everything in the background that look so close and attainable, but there is suddenly burbed wire blocking access to it”

Shit my friend says but this time it is oddly appropriate. I’m not an incredibly open person and I struggle with the whole ‘being-emotionally-avaliable’ thing. I should probably work on that at some point